To-get-her

It's painful, isn't it? When everything is going alright, even more than alright, and, all of sudden, he has to leave. And everything inside your chest clenches in such a disgraceful yet tender way due to either the certainty of your feelings and the uncertainty of the future. You can expect your feelings not to change but when it comes to the future you simply can't expect anything, you can do nothing apart from waiting but waiting can be so unsettling and exasperating and the void inside you is so excruciating it tears your heart into pieces. You miss him so bad...and all you want is proximity. You want not to be just closer but to be close enough, close enough to feel his warmth, to see his smile and know you're the reason, to touch him and know it's not just a dream. You want to be close enough to be "together". Close enough to make sure nothing has changed.