tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-55801875362016197162012-01-12T11:19:54.515+08:00"and I'm writing you a symphony of sound."Shafiah Arnoornoreply@blogger.comBlogger21100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5580187536201619716.post-61173412263639850262012-01-12T11:19:00.001+08:002012-01-12T11:19:54.588+08:00<p>Salam.</p> <br/> <p>And so I downloaded Blogger-Droid, a Blogger app for Androids. A Samsung Galaxy Note, one of those not-so-little things that I can't help but be grateful for other than the room I am living in, the car I am driving, the food that I eat and the chance to just be here. These things have helped me a lot. I can't believe how much the car have contributed during my lonesome stay in KL these past few months. The downside of not having a lot of friends.</p> <br/> <p>With the subject matter of 'masters' being mentioned, I can't help but announce that I have unofficially failed my first semester. Leaving me with only one chance left to fail. The fall however is surprisingly not due to Econometrics but Microeconomics (with a high probability of failing Economic Development too). I simply cannot meet the 70% needed to pass. My carry marks was 42%, a very comfortable rate if I were doing my undergrad. However the passing mark is no longer 50% and my bad performance during the final exam made it very close to impossible to pass. </p> <br/> <p>Goodbye trade, it was nice to be able to tap into your area. With the fall of this semester I am no longer allowed to take Economic Development, a pre-requisite to specializing in Trade and Development. I have yet to make up my mind on what area to pursue next. It is either Financial Economics (not the same as finance that deals with corporate finance, this is more on the macro side of finance which talks of interest rates, government deficit and so on) or Islamic Economics (which I am not very keen of due to the very heavy reliance on philosophy, something that I simply cannot master). </p> <br/> <p>Turth be told I am very tired of the judgemental remarks I've received over my choice of field (specifically regarding it not being Islamic Economics per se). Admittedly these events are isolated but they still attract the attention of my inner bitch. The reason why I've been preferring trade over IE is because I simply do not have the intellectual capacity to contribute to the macroeconomics of IE. And yes, Islamic finance may be your field of interest but I cannot imagine myself going into microeconomics.</p> <br/> <p>Still, thank you for believing that I can contribute to that highly complicated area of study. It is nonetheless a compliment that I, unfortunately, hope to hear no more in the future.</p> <br/> <p>And so, the soul searching continues. I believe that I have failed this semester because my heart was never in the right place to begin with. The bitterness over my father's decision for me to continue my studies straight away was carried with me on my first day of returning to IIUM. Indeed that is very childish but once you start a journey on the wrong foot it is bound to end ugly. And when I finally came around to my senses it was already too late to make a difference. I promised myself I will realign my focus with my fate and make it through next semester. There is afterall, always a reason and a part to play which is bigger than one's dreams and wants.</p> <br/> <p>Forgive my style of writing, I am feeling very English today (and the errors as I have no spell-checker).</p> <br/> <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.3</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5580187536201619716-6117341226363985026?l=counttheminutes.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shafiah Arnoornoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5580187536201619716.post-1693288350465844882009-03-28T20:40:00.002+08:002009-03-28T20:41:32.830+08:00<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://shafiaharn.blogspot.com/">http://shafiaharn.blogspot.com/</a></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5580187536201619716-169328835046584488?l=counttheminutes.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shafiah Arnoornoreply@blogger.com0